It has been a while on here.

And I’m only back because I’m heartbroken.

Three and a half years together.

Time has flown and I lost myself.

purplebuddhaquotes:

“I want to talk about what happened without mentioning how much it hurt. There has to be a way. To care for the wounds without reopening them. To name the pain without inviting it back into me.”

—

Lora Mathis

naturaekos:

“Almost. It’s a big word for me. I feel it everywhere. Almost home. Almost happy. Almost changed. Almost, but not quite. Not yet. Soon, maybe.”

— Joan Bauer
(via naturaekos)

kanyes-diary:

i wasn’t myself for weeks and nobody noticed.

naturaekos:

““Expectation is the root of all heartache.””

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amargedom:

“The sad truth is the truth is sad.”

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amortizing:

““Maybe you don’t know me that well.””

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amargedom:

“The worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself.”

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Some days are just more difficult than other days.

Death is visiting again. I feel darkness all over and I’m trying not to feel it. I think that’s the hardest part because I’ve been numbed for so long. I don’t feel like I used to nor do I cry like I used to.

It been so long that I am no longer familiar with this feeling of heaviness and darkness that feels like it’s eating me whole again.

Today is one of those days and I have nowhere to release my feelings, this darkness.