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I’m not sad or happy. I’m not hurting. I’m not angry. I’m not upset. I’m not disappointed. I’m not anything. I’m not empty. I’m not lonely. I’m just here, while my mind runs elsewhere.

Rather, I’m just numb. I don’t feel anything. I don’t feel the emotions running through my veins and trying to eat my inside. And I just can’t feel anything. Everything seems lifeless, rather than full of life. That’s why I find it harder to get up every morning because I don’t feel human. I feel like a robot. I just do what I’m told and I feel nothing. I feel absolutely nothing.

I find it harder to sleep at night knowing that I don’t feel anything. I really don’t feel human at all. I feel like my soul is wandering elsewhere. Wandering in a world I cannot attain because it’s in a world of nothingness, just like my heart. My body is here, but my soul is elsewhere. My heart have harden.

Maybe that’s why some people are so addicted to pain. It’s the fact that it makes them feel human and alive. It’s the fact that pain can make them cry, become angry, and just feel absolutely human. It’s the fact that without pain or happiness, you’d feel dead. Maybe that’s why people are so addicted to pain without realizing it because you feel human.

And that’s all I ever wish for—to feel human again.