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I must warn you that I'm a walking contradiction.
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boywandering:

I’m pretty much 100% certain that you won’t read this…

…but here goes. I know it always is up to me to define what happens between the two of us, because you never were good at understanding what was going on in my mind at any given moment. I know better than to think that writing this will do us any good now, but I suppose that I just wanted to get everything out, to write so that maybe I can heal. I wanted you to know that you were my biggest supporter, even when you didn’t realize it. There were a lot of times that I needed someone, anyone, and you were the only one there. Even when we fought and I could yell at the top of my lungs (which I never did, you know that) that you weren’t there for me, deep down I know that you wanted to be there, but I never let you in. I couldn’t. I kept my darkest fears, secrets, insecurities and vies locked away and only showed you the parts of me that were still fresh and clean, glimmering as an image that I wanted you to see. And only that. By the times that I was done, the jigsaw pieces fell apart, bit by bit, and I was left with a pile of jagged cardboard lies that could never fit together with you.