February 2012
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I want to sleep forever.
I want to go to a coffee shop and just relax a bit there. Perhaps, observe people a bit here and there. Breathe in the air that surrounds me by inhaling and exhaling the crisp morning air. It would be absolute solitude in my own little world. It’d be extremely nice right now.
One day, I will own all The Big Bang Theory seasons on DVD and I wouldn’t regret buying it at all. Yeah. That is all.
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Gosh, I love Christina. That is all.
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i think were tired right
Me: The muscles make him cute, he's like
me: ns ns ns ns
lily: ns ns ns? wut
me: oops, i mean
me: uns uns uns uns
lily: what is that?
me: you know, clubbing music
me: UNS UNS UNS UNS
lily: you mean
lily: unf unf unf unf?
me: no no like
me: NNS NNS NNS
lily: .......
lily: i get you
lily: your sound effects are so weird though
lily: UNCE UNCE UNCE UNCE?
me: oh yeah! that's it
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obseo:
so i was talking to lily and complaining about how my sanwhich was ending and she gave me this sad face dude….and i was like no he’s too happy he should be crying…so i changed it and things got a bit out of control oops
only because she said i made him ugly the second time.
the third one has a sanwhich on it.
LOL, ISN’T CHRISTINA SO CUTE FOR DRAWING ON HIM?! HAHA, I DIED...
Anonymous asked: what show was that from?
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I miss you. I miss you in the most innocent phase. I miss our late night talks and you venting to me. I miss you actually confiding in me and telling me everything because I cared so much about you. I miss you because you actually contributed to my life and made the efforts to know me even though I knew you better than how much you knew about me. I miss you because even though I was crumbling...
Anonymous asked: what do you do when you are sad?
Anonymous asked: How do you think being illiterate would affect your life?
I think out of everything, I miss you when you were humble and you stayed beautiful. I miss you when you were kinder, genuine, and just absolutely wonderful. I miss you when you didn’t have a lot of people around you because you gave me more of your time when I needed it. I miss you when you didn’t allow things to get to your head and for you to follow the crowd. I miss you when you...
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When you tell me you love me, I won’t believe you. Why? Because truly, “I love you” shouldn’t be taken for granted. Nor should it be thrown around uselessly, aimlessly, and meaninglessly. When you tell me you love me, I won’t believe you. Merely because you say it so loosely and I can’t take it seriously. I just can’t. When you tell me you love me, I...
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I drool a lot when I laugh and if you hang around me enough, you’ll start noticing me saying “Oh crap, I accidentally drooled from laughing.” Or you’ll just start noticing that I do drool when I laugh a lot. I don’t know why I do, but it happens frequently at random times.
Recommend me Asian dramas to watch, please.
I’m running out of things to watch and I finished watching My Lovely Sam Soon for like the fourth time. Yeah, fourth. It’s a personal favorite of mine, HAHA. Okay, yeah. Please?
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I want to travel. I want to go to every major amusement parks I can when I travel. I want to open a cafe/ bakery. I want to go to every aquarium in the world. I want to explore the city life and night life. I want to eat a lot of good food. I want to collect every postcards to every place I visit and store them in a precious box, so I can keep it as a reminder with dates on every postcards. I want...
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I feel like I don’t have time to catch up with anyone or associate myself with anyone. I just constantly focus on my education, sleep, eat, keep myself clean, and the routine repeats. It’s just a bit overwhelming not being able to talk to people on the daily because I’m so absorbed into my work and I can’t make time because I don’t know how to time manage between my...
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Sorry for being such a complicated person. Sorry for being an unstable person. Sorry for caring and worrying too much about you when I shouldn’t have in the first place. Sorry for existing in your life when I could have knew that you didn’t want me there in the first place.
bcuzimj asked: How's your penis? <3
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Whenever I talk about a certain topic and it’s something I’m currently struggling with and I’m sharing it with someone who I absolutely care for and actually trust, I end up crying. I end up crying because I feel so less alone.
It’s so easy to find someone who’ll fall out of love with you just as fast as when they fell in love with you. Or thought it was “love.” Oh, the irony.
I’m trying to be happy. Trust me when I say this. But I guess I’m not trying hard enough. So, I’m trying to be happy. Believe me, okay?
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California weather.
Morning: HOLY SHIT its freezing.
Afternoon: Who the fuck set the earth on fire.
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It just shows who’s really there and who really cares. I’m quite surprise how easy you can drop me and how easy you pick me back up on the tab. It’s amazing how selfish people can be, but it’s alright. I’ll manage. You’re just another person who destroyed a part of my trust that we built so strongly within the few years we’ve grown to known each other. I...
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I’m drowning, but little words like that saves me. It may not mean much to you, but it terribly means so much to me. It may only come from one or two people, but it means so much more than you can measure the earth’s distance from the sun. Thank you for your words because even though words may hold empty meanings, in the moment, they saved me from doing something rash....
I’m incredibly unstable right now. And I don’t know what to do at this point. I really don’t.
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A hug would really be nice right now. A long, comforting hug. I think it’d be nice to just have one right now because I can’t, I can’t feel anything and it’s slowly shattering me for not being able to feel. Have I grown heartless? Have I ran out of things to feel for? A hug is all I really need right now. A genuine one.
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I want to cry, but I can’t. I want to get hurt, but I can’t. I want to be happy, but I can’t. I want to be sad, but I can’t. I want to spill what’s on my mind, but I can’t. I want to give love a try again, but I can’t. I want to be able to feel again, but I can’t. I want to find myself and it’s not working. Nothing’s working and just this...
I actually miss having someone in my life. Someone as in I can talk to them on the daily and not have to worry about our conversations becoming dull or even if it does that it will always revive back. I actually miss that friend in my life where I can pour my heart out to and realized that even if they walked away, it wasn’t on purpose rather that it is because everyone drifts and fades...
Omg, I am laughing at 6 in the morning because I’m watching Asian dramas. LOL. I feel like a loser because everyone is sleeping and I’m trying to contain my laughter. Gosh, I am a loser.
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It’s so bittersweet knowing someone you used to tell so many things to becoming someone you no longer associate with to only know that they were the only person you told so many of your secrets or your past to.
I never tell anyone the full story. Just bits and pieces of my story because I know one day, they’ll walk away and more than likely, they won’t know me more than half-way. They’ll only judge me on the surface and only what I choose to show them. So, I don’t tell anyone the full story, ever. It’s just always going to be bits and pieces. It’s too complicated to...
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A letter.
I gave you a letter full of my feelings. I gave you a letter, hand-written with tears spilled and making words become smudged with black ink because I gave my all to you. Naive and foolish I was. Indeed. I gave you a letter that you no longer read. I gave you a letter that you no longer cherish or treasure. I gave you a letter full of my love and you ripped it up. Just like my heart, shattered. I...
Seeing people stay humble is rare nowadays.
I used to love you. Now you’re only a stranger to me and that’s perhaps why I’ve learned to no longer love you. If I still loved you, it’d be strange. Why? Because I’d be only loving the person you used to be and not who you are now which I no longer know. I used to love you or I thought I did.
I’m not sad or happy. I’m not hurting. I’m not angry. I’m not upset. I’m not disappointed. I’m not anything. I’m not empty. I’m not lonely. I’m just here, while my mind runs elsewhere. Rather, I’m just numb. I don’t feel anything. I don’t feel the emotions running through my veins and trying to eat my inside. And I just...
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Forgive me if I disappear a lot earlier than I shouldn’t have.
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I want to own a cafe one day. It’d be nice because it’s a combination of baking, tea, coffee, and all that. Yeah, I just want to own a cafe one day.
“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known...”
– Elisabeth Kübler-Ross (via -warmtea)
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You have no idea, but I find you incredibly beautiful in all your flaws. Even though you don’t feel beautiful, I find you incredible. I may hardly know you and I only get to see what’s on the surface, but to know how you present yourself with admitting imperfections just makes you even more handsome. I hope you know that one day, I hope you get over your thoughts of not wanting to...
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That feeling of being insignificant and small is becoming overwhelming and only grows stronger from here on out.
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You’re not sorry for hurting me. You’re not sorry for abusing me, mentally and emotionally. You’re not sorry for all the things you’ve done. You say sorry and I forgive you, but I still remember. I still remember all the things you’ve done. The bullshit, the betrayal, the anger, and just everything in between. From good to bad, you never once held on to me or realized...
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An escape would be really nice right now. Perhaps in a place where I can drown myself and allow myself to get away from everything. Perhaps a hideaway place where nobody can find me and I’m just in absolute solitude. An escape just sounds absolutely wonderful right now and I need it. I really do.
boywandering:
I’m pretty much 100% certain that you won’t read this…
…but here goes. I know it always is up to me to define what happens between the two of us, because you never were good at understanding what was going on in my mind at any given moment. I know better than to think that writing this will do us any good now, but I suppose that I just wanted to get everything out, to write so that...
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Sleepless night, stress arising, strength failing, and sweet dreams becoming such nightmares that never ends. Allow my heart to keep beating, with my eyes close and never be awoken again. Allow my mind to keep dreaming and constantly racing, with the imagination that sparks in my heart. Allow me to sleep forever, will you?
I am totally creeped out. There is this guy who I used to go to elementary school with who been stalking me even up to now and I never knew about it, until he kept trying to interact with me on Facebook. He had a crush on me in elementary school, but what the hell. I did not expect him to keep crushing on me even after I haven’t seen him for about almost eight years. He been keeping an...